Monday, February 20, 2006

Indeed

I did indeed spend the weekend in the big city, as it was my birthday, although I am hesitant to liberally rub that fact on the members of my modest social circle. I had a wonderful time, but instead of giving you the play-by-play, which you certainly would skip, I will give you some highlights which accented the weekend quite nicely:

Being treated to lunch by Vladimir (my boarder) and then his getting upset a few hours later when he found out it was my birthday.

Being called in the restaurant by my Great Aunt, who, when I am on the phone with her, I have to speak exceptionally loudly, and having to make the difficult decision as to whether to terminate the conversation or feel bad and speak really loudly. I chose the former.

Being the coldest I have ever been standing in the howling wind in Times Square waiting for tickets.

Vladimir remarking that the lead female in the musical we saw reminded him of a centaur.

Watching a father place his five year old son in front of a Jackson Pollock painting at MOMA and asking him how the painting made him feel.

Vladimir (a common theme) telling a story about how he hates Mariachi bands because he doesn't want to tip them but feels obligated, and how one time at a Mexican restaurant a mariachi band came up to him and he just handed them 15 dollars and told them to leave.

So, all in all, a very successful weekend. Next weekend i'm going to the District (Washington DC, for you squares) to see my mom. hoo-zah.

And I've been meaning for a while to do an entry detailing the epic personality of my roommate, but the muses for that particular entry have proved both elusive and resilient. One will come in time.

Southward are some photographs

Jyaa.

Nueva York, circa February





Tuesday, February 14, 2006

white-out

22 inches of snow. 3 feet. 1 yard. a little less than a meter.




Thursday, February 09, 2006

The kind of thing

I was planning on doing a piece about my roommate in this online journal, but have run out of energy when I finally finished my work every day this week in order to give it the full energy it deserves and requires to examine this walking social contradiction who lives beside me in the oversized closet that is my dorm room.

tonight would seem like the perfect night, but he managed to top the bill again. I'm pretty sure that everyone else on this campus except me is tuning into the Fox programme entitled "the OC" right now. My roommate apparantly likes this show too, which is enough, under normal circumstances, to make me not like him. but instead, despite my urgings, he wants to watch it in our room. You see, for some reason he likes doing things that normal people would do with other people with himself. Video games, movies, tv shows you name it, he does it in my room and not with the hundreds of other potential people he could be doing it WITH. But tonight really takes the cake, because not only do i have a splitting headache that would make putting on headphones at the sufficient volume to block out the OC extremely painful and detrimental to my health, but he is also doing his homework. when I said, how can you watch TV and do homework, he said that watching tv doesn't take all his attention, so he can do both at once.

Hence I am in the library and writing this angry few paragraphs which I'm pretty sure he won't read because he has the oddest instant messanger habits i've ever seen, which is another column in itself, as is his desktop computer, which has Terrets syndrome and is mentally retarded.

that is all for tonight.

My birthday is soon. whoopee.

Oh, and I almost forgot. I'd like to give my annual "fuck you" to Valentine's Day a week early. So, fuck you Valentine's Day.

And yes, I know I only say that because I have nobody with which to share Hallmark Presents Valentine's Day. But that doesn't stop me from doing it.

I'm a monster.

grar

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

State of the Blog

Sooo much to talk about, yet so little has actually happened.

Firstly, though, I will expound on something that has been boiling up quietly inside of me for some time. And, in truth it is likely that only one of my six readers (colt) will understand what it is I am doing, and very slightly possibly two (fern). but, in any case, i present to you my cynicism, in live journal form:

Date: 2/6
Mood: High.

Smoked today.

Today I smoked, and the RA didn't like it, so I went downstairs, went to the beach, and smoked. I got my 9th new camera this year in the mail today, and I'd show a picture of it but I'm too high to remember how to do it. When I was there, I took some self portrait shots, including this one, which, if you click on it, will send you to a link where you can tell me how good it is:



Also, I've downloaded about 25 albums in the last few hours, and since it is clearly apparant that (a) I have deleted more music off of my iTunes than you will ever have ON your iTunes, (b) my music is clearly superior to your music, (c), I know every band that has existed since the dawn of time and (d), your musical experience clearly isn't anything worth discussing unless you have my music, i will now casually list off the 25 obscure bands in hopes of you thinking it is actually possible to listen to this much music in a short amount of time and still get something out of it other than to be able to say i own it:

The Potatoes of Iowa - What's the potato?
The Bong Warriors - Oh So High

Oh, by the way, I smoked today.

Obscure Mutilation Corporation - The End is near!
Moving Pictures - ShoveThatIndieRecordUpYourAssYouPretentiousBastard

I need a smoke. I was talking to my friends, they smoked. Word.

I also took 15 pictures of my room, but I'm still working on them on Photoshop, so you'll have to wait. Sorry.

Also, I think I'm going to get a tattoo. I took a self-portrait that I think would go great on my lower back. I wonder if they do that. Oh well, if they don't, I'll do it myself. Get ready for picture!

Think I'm going to go smoke.

Peace.

Oh, and p.s. since the time I last talked about music I purchased 17 more albums.

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Parsha Bo

Parsha Bo
Parsha Bo begins with the eighth plague in the series of ten, the coming of the locusts to destroy the crops of Egypt. Moses nonchalantly stretched out his trusty staff, and a strong westerly poured in from God knows where, and locusts came and covered all of the ground until it was black. They devoured everything, forcing Pharaoh to summon Moses and Aaron back into his presence. Pharaoh explains that he had sinned, and asks Moses and Aaron to pray to God to stop the onslaught of plagues. God then initiates a strong easterly wind, taking all of the locusts with it. The portion reads, “Not a locust was left anywhere in Egypt. But the Lord hardened Pharaoh’s heart, and he would not let the Israelites go.

Plague nine brought darkness to the land of Egypt. Conveniently enough, though, the places where the Israelites dwelled remained lit. After what must have been an odd-looking situation to those looking at the dark from the light and vice versa, Pharaoh again summons Moses and Aaron, and tells them to leave the land of Egypt, but to leave their livestock behind. He warns them, telling them never to show their faces before him again. Moses agrees to this permanent separation, and they go on their merry way.

The Lord then explains to Moses the concept behind his latest and greatest creation: the plague that would eliminate the first born of those whose door was not adorned with the blood of a sacrificial lamb. The rules for Passover, by my count still two months away, but who am I to question God, are then laid down. Following this, and the to-be-closely-adhered-to rules to make sure you wake up with your first-born still sleeping where you left him the night before, Pharaoh, apparently not able to live without seeing Moses and Aaron one more time, summons them and tells them to leave, no strings attached.

Then, according to my Sunday school teacher, Moses wasn’t happy because he had just told his bakers to begin baking bread for sandwiches for the ride home, and now that they had to go there wouldn’t be enough time for the bread to cook all the way, oy vay, so they were forced to take it out of the oven while it was still flat as a coaster, leading to generations upon generations of crumbs all over the carpet. They then began on their way to the Promised Land, the land of milk and honey, Israel.

But it wasn’t all fun and games. In fact, unless you’re named Pat Robertson or Jerry Falwell, we can hardly expect that God might intervene today on our parts as God chose to do in the time of the enslavement in Egypt.

Around the seder table at my house each year, my staunch revisionist mother allows us to reflect upon what the plagues might symbolize for us denizens of the modern world; that being, modern-day plagues. And in the latter two plagues of Parsha Bo, striking and chilling examples still occur in our world.

As I stated earlier, the miraculous nature of the plague of darkness must call into question the probability of there actually being darkness which only filled certain parts of Egypt, leaving the Jewish settlements illuminated. Etz Hayim offers this explanation:

Perhaps the plague was not a physical darkness, a sandstorm, or a solar eclipse; perhaps it was a spiritual or psychological darkness, a deep depression. People suffering from depression lack the energy to move about or to be concerned with anyone other than themselves, precisely as the Torah describes the Egyptians.

I did not know Donalyn Evans, so I am certainly not qualified to speak on specifics or causes of her recent passing, and because of this I offer my pre-emptive apologies to anybody who is aware of these items (Editor's note: Donalyn Evans, a student at Trinity College, died of self-inflicted wounds the first week back from winter break). But as an individual whose family has a multi-generational history of depression and difficult and scarring bouts with it of my own, I feel I am well qualified to say at least this much:

The recurring theme of the confrontations between Moses and Aaron and the Pharaoh whose permission they are seeking speaks aptly to the well-worn adolescent psychology phenomena of the warning sign. Pharaoh was given more than enough warning signs; in truth, every one of the plagues could be counted as such. His unwillingness to acknowledge these, divinely willed or not, points directly and obviously to the inner thoughts of someone who is suffering from depression. I cringe when I hear of the premature death of any person, college students especially, but when it is of the self-inflicted kind I am forced to re-examine my relationship with my peers. Is my relationship with them at the point where I could have figured out something was wrong? What would I have done differently? Did she know there was more help available? What more could her friends have done for her? I can only imagine how those close to Donalyn must feel during these moments, and in truth I never want to be able to experience it in reality. If we are able to learn anything from Pharaoh, an otherwise vilified character in the annals of our religion, it should be to acknowledge the warning signs, the plagues, from the outset. Don’t wait until it’s too late to reverse your track.

The death of the first born. Tragically, today, the angel of death is not so selective. War and famine continue to rage in Darfur, and in 2005 alone 2.8 and 3.6 million had their lives ended by HIV/AIDS, which bears a strong connection to the first plague, that of blood. Who is to say that these modern plagues are not testing our will just as those of Pharaoh’s time? These modern-day plagues are of such intensely frightening magnitude that they likely would not have been out of place among the other curses God leveled onto the Egyptians. Now is our chance to be put in the shoes of Pharaoh. Will we wait until it is too late to acknowledge the realities of these plagues, as he did? Or will we be able to change the course of history and acknowledge these issues as reality? It is now up to all of us. The writing is on the wall; the land of milk and honey awaits.

Shabbat Shalom.